urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:necrotragedy necrotragedy necrotragedy 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:necrotragedy:7893 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z god,it's really hard to move on. sucks when you fall for some one who would not or never catch you. its not the falling part that hurts,its the moment when you hot ground zero... ouch...<br />there's a lot of things going in my mind. i still like brian, my off-to-priesthood-boy-next-door, whats sucks is when i thought that its never really meant for us coz he's off to priesthood and hearing from someone that he has a girl friend sucks. what sucks even more is the fact that i confessed him my feelings so that he wouldnt hurt me that much and that i wouldn't wait in vain once again. but i still did waited in vain for his answer on my confession...<br />i guess he's just not that man enough...TRAGIC<br />they say that things happend for a reason, this time i dont know what the reason is,soon i guess, i'll know why...<br /><br /> being a good friend some times suck,coz you have to hear all their frustrations and disappointment and there are times that they wont listen to you...<br />even those who are not my friend tell me stuff bout their problems and all that.ofcourse,being a good friend i should listen.not that its an obligation,i just thought it would be mutual that we would both benefit...<br />TRAGIC when it goes that way...<br /><br />why do they always pick me to share their problems,hardship and all that? and they wouldnt listen to mine,why?<br />it aint fair...<br /><br />something came up to my realization and its somethingt that suppose to hurt, i did felt hurt, but, i didnt cry,which i usually do,even small things,even cat that got run over by cars. but this time, when im the one hurting,i cant cry.i cant shen a single shed of tear.its weird...<br /><br />brian, the one i thought is an angel, was only a guy with fake wings and harness...<br />he's not an angel. not my angel...<br /><br />i'll just go back to my hell