necrotragedy (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} necrotragedy) wrote,@ 2006-09-13 17:19:00 |
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a long day of dreaming
im still dreaming bout my "brian" and i think am already suffering from some uncureable illness.
it doesnt matter anywho,and im not yet in love,i dont think this is love but i think it is but who can tell right?gian told me that she think this is love,dont know,i'll just make the most of it while it last,right?
things bout my "brian".last saturday they went to our place to have lunch.my sister saw a paper inside his wallet,he didnt let her read it coz its a page from his journal,but im his best friend i HAVE the privelege to read it,only a part of it.so there it was that he's missing his dad and i really feel sorry for him coz i know that he didnt get to spend that much time with his dad coz he's in the seminary.then how ever much he miss his dad,how ever much he pray for his dad,his dad wont come back.and the more he misses his dad the more i,i think, he's hurting.coz no matter what happened that void wont ever be filled.
i eish i could do something for him but i dont know what to do.and im worried that he cant tell much about it, supressing how much he misses he's dad,just bottling it up inside i think would really be unhealthy for him.
i know that he's used to not being with his dad and ofcourse i know that he misses him even when he was still alive,but now that he's gone,there's no point of looking forward to seeing his dad,no point of thinking what to do on christmas with his dad,no point of worrying what his dad would do if he finds that brian had a piercing.no sense at all.
i wish i can fill that void,but he'll ya i can do that.haha...
i wish that i can kiss all the pain away just like how mothers kiss the little "boo boos" of their kids.i know its just something pyschological but this is different,i just wish i could do something for him,i really do.but i cant ask him about it,i think he'll just miss his dad even more or he would feel sad about it,thinking that i pity him.i dont pity him,i want him to share what he feels,i want to know all about it but im to scared to ask.
today is september 13,its already the -BER months they say,and december is coming to a close and this will be his first christmas without his dad.i feel sorry for him and i cant do anything about it...
a little conslolation would help thank you...
im still dreaming bout my "brian" and i think am already suffering from some uncureable illness.
it doesnt matter anywho,and im not yet in love,i dont think this is love but i think it is but who can tell right?gian told me that she think this is love,dont know,i'll just make the most of it while it last,right?
things bout my "brian".last saturday they went to our place to have lunch.my sister saw a paper inside his wallet,he didnt let her read it coz its a page from his journal,but im his best friend i HAVE the privelege to read it,only a part of it.so there it was that he's missing his dad and i really feel sorry for him coz i know that he didnt get to spend that much time with his dad coz he's in the seminary.then how ever much he miss his dad,how ever much he pray for his dad,his dad wont come back.and the more he misses his dad the more i,i think, he's hurting.coz no matter what happened that void wont ever be filled.
i eish i could do something for him but i dont know what to do.and im worried that he cant tell much about it, supressing how much he misses he's dad,just bottling it up inside i think would really be unhealthy for him.
i know that he's used to not being with his dad and ofcourse i know that he misses him even when he was still alive,but now that he's gone,there's no point of looking forward to seeing his dad,no point of thinking what to do on christmas with his dad,no point of worrying what his dad would do if he finds that brian had a piercing.no sense at all.
i wish i can fill that void,but he'll ya i can do that.haha...
i wish that i can kiss all the pain away just like how mothers kiss the little "boo boos" of their kids.i know its just something pyschological but this is different,i just wish i could do something for him,i really do.but i cant ask him about it,i think he'll just miss his dad even more or he would feel sad about it,thinking that i pity him.i dont pity him,i want him to share what he feels,i want to know all about it but im to scared to ask.
today is september 13,its already the -BER months they say,and december is coming to a close and this will be his first christmas without his dad.i feel sorry for him and i cant do anything about it...
a little conslolation would help thank you...
