a day away
ok,how should i start this.the good thing that happened today,early morn was that i get to have a free ride from one of the professors in our college.what's cool about that?i get to save my money that i use for transportation.
bad thing that happened the day before yesterday.we had gym class that day.basketball,which again am really bad at.all i did was run after the ball and well,just run.sad thing that happened,i sent my brian a message via sms,and guess what,no response.im not asking him to but the feeling that he doesnt want to tell me anything or whatever fuck sucks.its really fucking weird.im not saying that i am inlove but somehow i want to be loved i guess,ofcourse by him.but the mere fact that he's off to priesthood and is still in love with his xgirlfriend then where am i?
just a trash.sad and i felt so depressed that night i was crying,not because of that incident but bcoz of the song "a got a dark alley and a bad idea..." fall out boy.i kinda feel that way,not just kinda but really feel that way.
here's how the song goes:

Joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of "best friends"
We're the kids who feel like dead ends
And I want to be known for my hits, not just my misses
I took a shot and didn't even come close
At trust and love and hope
And the poets are just kids who didn't make it
and never had it at all

And the record won't stop skipping
And the lies just won't stop slipping
And besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles, baby, half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me

Please put the doctor on the phone because I'm not making any sense
Blame everyone else but me for this mess
And my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopefull, you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all

And the record won't stop skipping
And the lies just won't stop slipping
And besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles, baby, half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me

To everyone else around me
Everyone else around me
Everyone else around me

yep,that's how i feel.i feel to emotional right now and i dont know if someone feels the same way that i do.i guess,somewhere far in the horizon...
i dont know...